How much we will pay for the week of rest? The rest which means safety, tranquility and hope. In the face of this disease each coming day is a fast-moving scenario with anxiety and unpredictable risk. In such a way, the week of rest is a small life.

In a short period of time after blood transfusion, the blood values suddenly came down. The disease is rapidly progressing leaving no time at all and we have nothing to response. One more week full of detachment and frustration has passed away. One more check analysis again. We expected everything, but not clinical response. The second analysis is the same as the first one. The blood values are frozen. This fact means that the processes of blood destruction have been arrested and slow down. This piece of news gratified me highly. Wonderful news. This fact also means that we have a good chance to regain health. This means that the body is fighting against disease. This means that something goes not only wrong, but right and the God helps us.

Such a happy week has passed away. New check analysis showed low blood values. One more week of expectations goes ahead. This is the week of hope and fear as well as painful thoughts and forced morning smile. This is the week of fight and fatigue. The life is measured by weeks goes ahead to blood check analyses.

It could be quite regular thing to go to the cinema. It is the second part of “Three steps above heaven” this time. I took Bogdan along with me. In some ordinary places like cinema or shopping malls it seems to me that everything wrong is a nightmare… In everyday life with its small worries everything seems to be more safe and calm. I can forget about everything wrong for short minutes.

As for the movie, I didn’t like it at all. It seemed slow, plotless, and inconsecutive as well as overacted to me. I started talking about it while leaving dark cinema hall. Bogdan kept silence. He kept silence for a long time until we are in the street.

- And I like the movie, it is about life.
- What life? Movies about life are deep, and here we can see nothing but “jelly”, the plot is not considered and not completed.
- That means that the third part will come soon. I think there is everything: friendship, fancy, passion, love, hospital and death… This is the life. I am in the hospital, ill and will never become healthy. I will never have those things that I had before.
- You will! Doctors could not know everything through and through. However there is always the HOPE. Even when there is not.

I was silent. I was in a cold sweat. This makes me creep all over. Never before I have not even realized what thoughts are there in his brain. However hard the situation is, I will not never know what is in his soul and heart. In fact I am far from his fears.

Health is a blessing that money cannot buy. However there is a hope, he has a chance to live. The night is yet young. The bad time is when the person is gone. He is alive! He is at hand. There should be someone who will help him and something that will help him under the sun. The world is so huge, various and active… We just have to find. I do all my best, but often feel myself like someone trying to swim, but it turns out that I have no hands.